Tuesday, January 1, 2008

New Year, New Blog

OK, OK this blog is less to update everyone and more as a record for myself of how I am feeling today. That's my disclaimer, feel free to stop reading and not hurt my feelings at all.

Honestly, 2007 sucked. It might have been better than 2005 and 2006 because it was minus the "public" factor (I didn't have people constantly knowing about the sucky things) but it sucked. Not that I'm complaining because it has definitely had it's good moments and I am intelligent enough to know that it could have been worse, but let's call a spade a spade.

In 2007 I disappointed myself more than I ever thought possible. In 2007 I mismanaged my money. In 2007 I worked way too much. In 2007 I had my heart broken. In 2007, I gained enough wait to move up a size. In 2007 the Vols lost to Florida AND Alabama, neither was even close. In 2007 I disappointed and hurt my family and was disappointed and hurt by some of them. In 2007 I had to get glasses. In 2007 I didn't go one single date. In 2007 I lost a friend to the war. In 2007 I watched my friend going through the agony of being pregnant and then losing the baby. In 2007 I lost touch with most of my friends.

It wouldn't take a lot of hard thinking to come up with a lot more. But, I think that I have hit the high (well, low) points. Now I need to come up with as many good things to salvage this blog.

In 2007 I grew up. (I really believe that this also could have gone under the earlier list but in the optomistic spirit that comes with New Year's Day, I am putting it under this one!). In 2007 I picked myself up...immediately, or as close to it as I believe is humanly possible. I had my heart broken (I know that most of you who know me very well at all probably inserted "again" here), probbaly worst than it ever has been before and I got up. I went to work, I stopped crying, I kept eating, and kept the gloominess off of my face, so I didn't have to share it with everyone. This is a big one for me. In 2007 I supported myself on my own and helped support my sister. In 2007 the Vols went to the SEC championship and, equally as wonderful, neither Alabama nor Florida did! In 2007 I added a new member to my family, I finally have a brother! In 2007 I didn't have one bad date or go one that I absolutely didn't want to go on (You are only snickering here because I haven't been on one at all if you have never experienced a truely bad date or gone on one that you REALLY didn't want to!). In 2007 I became even more patriotic and gained a whole new appreciation for the war on terror. In 2007 I realized that I know one of the strongest people in the world. In 2007 I learned that truely in the worst of times sometimes you really do see the best in people. In 2007 I was reminded that I know a lot of people think that it's true to their lives, but in mine it really is; I seriously have the best friends in the world. In 2007 I was reminded that there has never been a question about how wonderful my family is.

I hope that 2008 brings better, even great things. I hope that it brings a better attitude. I hope that it brings a closer walk with God. I hope that it brings a lot more time with friends and family. I hope it brings less time at work. I hope it brings a padded savings account. I hope it brings a crush (I know for sure that I'm in no way ready for a relationship, maybe not even a real date, however I love that feeling of just having a crush....not being able to get someone out of my mind, getting "butterflies" in my stomach, blushing! No one has made me feel any of those things in a long time and I would like to just reassure myself that I am still capable of those feelings!). I hope it brings healthier living (I'm not banking on it but I'm hoping!). I hope that I go to more concerts and more sporting events. I hope that I spend more time on the lake. I hope that I give more. I hope that I learn how not to have to be in control all of the time.

Now, if you are down to this paragraph....wow, with my ADD I have even lost intrest a little :) And, thank you. Not for reading my silly blog but for being someone who cares about me enough to read it all. You are one of the best things of my 2007 and, Lord willing, will be of my 2008. I hope that this is your best year yet!

9 comments:

Lindsey said...

Laurie - you are such a good writer and trust me, your posts are never boring! Sounds like the year 2007 was a growing year for you (and many many others) A friend said to me recently that in order to grow in our faith, God needs to stretch us...sometimes stretching is painful. I've known a lot of people who were stretched last year and I'm thinking that 2008 is going to be jam-packed with blessings for both you and everyone else!!! It's good to read your posts again!

The Holtons said...

You are one of my blessing-in 2007 and 2008 and many years to come. See you this week-end-love ya, Gin

The Dawkins said...

Wow two post this close together.....ok....is having to get glasses really that bad?? 2007 was not the best of years for a lot of people, but what doesn't kills us makes us stronger, and God does not give us more than we can handle. So keep your chin up and remember you will ALWAYS be a winner to me :)

Jessica said...

Oh, Laurie. It's so funny to read what you write b/c I hear you talking as I read it, and that cracks me up. :) We should be friends 'again' in 2008.

Jessica said...

Oh, Laurie. It's so funny to read what you write b/c I hear you talking as I read it, and that cracks me up. :) We should be friends 'again' in 2008.

Hicks Family said...

thank you, thank you, thank you! Terri and I were discussing our "plans" for you if we didn't have a new post. Anyway, sorry '07 wasn't great for you, but '08 will be better! It has to be!
Can't wait to see you.

Leah said...

Bless your heart! Hope 08 brings you much happiness!

Rebecca said...

Great to find you on here. Hope you have a great 2008!

Tammy said...

Sorry that 2007 was so yucky for you and hope that 2008 brings many blessings to you!! Glad we can catch up on here every once in a blue moon. It's better than nothing!